I know, I know.

[ He sighs, and his smile flickers. He tries to keep it rueful, self-deprecating, but it just ends up looking pained. ]

I thought that since it's Akashicchi, he wouldn't judge me for it, you know? Because he's already done worse. So I thought it'd be okay to tell him. I thought he'd listen to me, and... I really did think he'd say that it was okay. [ A beat. ] Since it was important, and it wasn't anything he hasn't done.